12:15pm

very very sleepy . =(
But i cant sleep! i want to study!
Msn war now. scary sia. yl, malvin asked me about the emoticon.
Kelvin asked me to chat with him on phone.
Quan saying me.
WAH. now my motivation here then you all come and talk to me. lol
Galvin. stop targeting on my girls! tskkkkkkkk!

Had much fun catching up with val and ade. (: These two. I need to meet up soon. lol! Too long never catch up already ah. They feel so lost. tsk tsk!

Goodluck to those who got test tml ! :D
Zhabos! JIAYOU!

I just ate supper. sinfullllllll x(




9:27pm

:D :D :D :D :D

SURPRISE WITH BUBBLE TEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
THE PEARL VERY NICE TO CHEW. ❤ thank you ! :D
i got combos of pearlssss. kk, random

So what have i done from 4 plus till now. hmmmm, i slept till 6.30pm !
woke up. msn with sher, keng lee, yi han, yl, joe,yh, val, violet, siling, danny soh XD loolol. Cant rmb all though.


basket danny talked to me on msn just now and make fun of me like non stop. =.=
First thing jiu loser. Now book in jiu fb calls me no-lifer. >.<>.<>.<

FAT LIKE SHIT NOW.
My flu is getting worse and worse & im feeling super tired but i cant sleep. Very helpless ah ! =(



That's about it. and here's emo qiuxuan!
hahahah.

anyway anyway, im feel loved these few days. however, its not easy for me to accept you that fast. Im trying to open up my heart now. But im very contented with my life right now.
I can see that you are trying your best to hold me back but im no longer that qiu xuan that you once know me. Neither am i the girl that was with you for one whole year. For, the scar is always always there. I can never forget those 20 plus days, which close to one month. Way too scary, way too much. The things you had done to hurt me. well, you may think its just some small matters but to me, it affected me very very badly. You made me lost trust. You made me fear of getting into a r/s. You made me feel that everyone is toying with my feelings. You made me think that i got no one to trust except for my clique.
Very scary do you know that?

The promises you once made to me, you said 'im gonna break it, no more.' then again, right now you say, i still rmb all those promises. Which one should i trust?
Are you serious right now? I dont know.

I maybe the one who knows what you dont like, what you like. What you are thinking now and then. I maybe the one who understands you but so what? You bring me up so high up and then throw me all the way down. Its very painful you know?
Again, i know you regretted leaving me, you regretted the things that you had done to me during the past few 20 plus days. But regretting is useless. What's done is done. No point crying over spilled milk.
A broken heart remains as a broken heart even if you try means and ways to heal it. Scars are always there..

I hope after days or maybe months, im able to regain back those trusts i had in you. (:
I fear to see your friends and your family members. I dont know how to face them. I dont know what should i say to them.


And i guess, someone did come to my blog and read it. I dont think you should make yourself so miserable by doing such a noble thing to me and then hurt yourself. What for? You think i will feel happy in this way?


Alright, i dont feel like blogging already. goodbye people! (: