well well.. The one who asked me to move on was you. The one who stopped me was you again.
Do i really understand you? I guess no.
You pushed me away so hard. Having fun while im suffering for these whole period. I don't know whether you did put yourself in my shoe. Maybe you did and feel that I'd suffered.but so what, you didn't stop what you are doing. You didn't.

I cried days and nights. I tried means and ways to hold but to no avail.
4TH Aug, damn miserable. Meeting up for a simple i got rejected. I cant do anything and then, i got to know you went to somewhere with someone which i yearn for it for so long.

I really cant take it anymore, the way you treat me. Am i nothing but shit to you? Leaving me as and when you like. Leaving me alone down there? Making me holding onto this small lil hope, hoping to be back again?
I still rmb the last day i got to see you. I rushed down from school all the way to yck with an empty stomach, resulting with gastric pain home yet i dont even feel like eating, just a 3 mouthful of bread and im done. Cant you see im trying to revive this r/s but well.. You insisted.

Seeing you leaving at that moment with no turning back to look at me once. I see you walking away, far far away from me. Yet i cant do anything. All i can do, was to sit down at the stairs went crying and crying. But the person who came back to find me was benson. Not you. You really left me. Very very far away..

Im admit i was at fault in the past, how about you? Are you at fault too?
Reflection. I did. I told you in the first week that im sorry, i regretted for doing all these. I did. I blogged about it but i drafted them. Dont believe, you can log in to my this account and take alook. I thought 2 months, things will change! naive naive. TOO NAIVE.

Alright, i guess im done with all these. (: