Maybe i'd decided muchhh..

well, after one whole long day of thinking. i guess i'd somehow made my decision.
Idk whether will i be happier than this. But i know for sure that my future will be a different story; it could be a bad one or perhaps a good one. i cant foresee anything but all i can say is that, I rly dont think i deserved such treatment from u. Yes, its you. I feel upset and disappointed each time i think of each and every incident or things that i'd done for you and yet nothing in return!

Not that im expecting sth back, but i just wna get appreciated and be loved. Is it tt so difficult?
Maybe, its time to end this misery and get out from this full of sadness situation.

Anyway, i thanked all my friends for being thr for me. No doubt you guys are the best. Never feel to be there for me whenever im down or in need of your help. Thanks so much though.
Talking and speaking out my thoughts and everything, i feel more relieved and yeap. advices given. I feel much more, hmmm. more of like, know what im doing?

Maybe its time to move on. Time to forget the past and start everything afresh?
Time will prove everything i guess.

alright, i should stop my insomia and loss of appetite soon! that's so bad for my health man.
stop it stop it.
From now on, im gna love myself more than everyone do and protect myself in regards of any situation.
Look, old qiu xuan is gna come back. Im not gna be so fragile and let any of you to step on and get bullied. That's the end guys. Im gna stand up and be strong and cheerful and happy. (:

It's my life! life is short and i should spend time being happy rather than sad. BOO TO THE STUPID QX.

alright, time to sleep! prepare for napfa tml! goodluck guys! :D