sighh

My mood has been so moody ever since wed night.

Looking at the wound everyday makes me feel more sad.

When will it recover?
Will there be scars?

Im so scared. what if there is?! how am i gonna go out in the future in shorts, skirts, dresses?!

sighh..
my retribution i guess.

im stupid, im foolish, im dumb.

if only i can turn back the time...

its been 3 days staying at home.
i cant even walk properly.
Neither am i able to walk for long.
Whenever i sit down and stand up again, i need to wait for 2 mins to fully stretch my leg. what is this?!

Not to mention run, jump and whatever shit.
every night i got woken up by the intense pain on the knee cap and that i need to eat painkillers to numb the pain..
THIS IS NOT THE LIFE I WANTED AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To think im used to be an athlete.
now more like a crippled person.
this is shit!

fml